You'll be in my heart, now and forever more..

It's mothers day and like every year my sister and I made my beautiful mummy breakfast and we sat in her bed for an hour opening presents and giggling, that's what I love about my mum; she's not just a parent she truely is my best friend and she always knows how to make me smile.

So we've got lots of chocolate and yummy foods and we're going to spoil her alot today!

Baby, she's a wild thing.

I just want this all to be over, being ill's getting old and schools a drag.

I can't wait to leave this all behind, go to college and grow up. I want to go on a road trip on a hot summers day with no predetermined destination, just follow the open road listening to Indie music.
I want to lay on the beach all day and take picture of the night sky.

I also want to get this taattooed on me, maybe the middle of my upper back?

tears don't mean your losing, everyone's bruising.

Well I feel I'm losing myself in this illness, as if I'm drowning and I'm so weak and powerless.

I'm trying to keep my spirits up, even though I'm scared and full of worry. Inbetween visits to the hospital I've successfully managed to watch all my favourite Disney movies and it kept my mind off everything and took me back to happier times when I was younger when all I had to worry about was what smelly gel pen I'd use to write with.

Even though I haven't really seen my friends and feel abit lonely it hasn't all been bad, my mums really spoilt and looked after me and it's been nice to just have a break from people and given me time to think about what I want and to look to the future and not dwell on the past.
So I have another appointment at my second home, the hospital, next week. YAY! I can hardly wait.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you...

You kept my heart warm in these cold winter months, and you made me feel alive.
But it's time to stop this heartache and save myself any more let down and pain.

So I'll have my heart back until I find someone who deserves to look after it.

In all this chaos, we found safety..

Christmas is over, and the end of 2010 is approaching. Lots of people say new year, new start.. but I dont want a new start, I'm really happy and for me 2010 has been a great year. I've got some great friends and I've made memories with them that'll I'll never forget.
I'm ending the year with a drink in my hand surrounded by friends, and it pretty much sums up 2010 for me.. I've danced all night, till i couldn't feel my legs!

I've learnt alot this year, and I think over time i have changed.. but I'm growing and I'm living.

but darlin' you are the only exception..

I started this last night, but i fell asleep :/

When i lose faith in the male gender, feel lost and confused.. I come to you.
You are the one man i can always rely on, my best friend a true gentleman. You put your arms around me and give me that look, and everything's alright.
Yesterday was just what I needed, just shutting the world out and spending time with you.
It was lovely to spend your birthday with you; just you and me.. so simple yet so special. I love you so much, and I never wanna lose you, no other man will ever come close to you.

So I touched the clouds, and stole a piece of heaven

today has been perfect:

making brownies then snuggeling on the sofa watching monsters inc and finding nemo with a special young man...

getting ready with the best friend to go to Nando's with thet gals and boys; laughter and love.

Now I'm chilling listening to Taylor Swift munching on a rather large bar of galaxy, courtesy of miss elizabeth robert <3