In all this chaos, we found safety..

Christmas is over, and the end of 2010 is approaching. Lots of people say new year, new start.. but I dont want a new start, I'm really happy and for me 2010 has been a great year. I've got some great friends and I've made memories with them that'll I'll never forget.
I'm ending the year with a drink in my hand surrounded by friends, and it pretty much sums up 2010 for me.. I've danced all night, till i couldn't feel my legs!

I've learnt alot this year, and I think over time i have changed.. but I'm growing and I'm living.

but darlin' you are the only exception..

I started this last night, but i fell asleep :/

When i lose faith in the male gender, feel lost and confused.. I come to you.
You are the one man i can always rely on, my best friend a true gentleman. You put your arms around me and give me that look, and everything's alright.
Yesterday was just what I needed, just shutting the world out and spending time with you.
It was lovely to spend your birthday with you; just you and me.. so simple yet so special. I love you so much, and I never wanna lose you, no other man will ever come close to you.

So I touched the clouds, and stole a piece of heaven

today has been perfect:

making brownies then snuggeling on the sofa watching monsters inc and finding nemo with a special young man...

getting ready with the best friend to go to Nando's with thet gals and boys; laughter and love.

Now I'm chilling listening to Taylor Swift munching on a rather large bar of galaxy, courtesy of miss elizabeth robert <3

It's cold outside, but I'm warm inside.

Presents under the tree, snow on the roof tops and surrounded by loved ones.

Christmas is just round the corner and I'm loving December!

In the midst of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer.

I'm Lost, Lost in Dreams and Reality.

THIS IS YOUR LIFE, ARE YOU WHO YOU WANNA BE?
IS IT EVERYTHING YOU DREAMED IT WOULD BE?
WHEN THE WORLD WAS YOUNGER, AND YOU HAD EVERYTHING TO LOSE, EVERYTHING TO LOSE...

i feel i'm losing grip and I don't like this feeling of falling. People ask me how i'm feeling and whats going on and I just don't have the answers.
I dont know where this is going but I hope there's a light at the end of the tunnel.

Cast your troubles into the sky, they can be the stars in our eyes..

Exams are over, Christmas is near, interview at Farnborough; the future seems bright.

Last night was emotional to say the least; tears, broken hearts and drink. I spent most of my evening pining over lost friendship and boys that don't deserve my tears.
You should Have opened your eyes, I was crazy for you.



Hannah Wylam: I owe you an apology as well as a thank you, I hope we can go back to how we were as your a huge part of my life, and I truly value your friendship. We have more in common than we thought and we have had some hard times, we've both been knocked to the point where we thought we wouldn't be able to stand again but look at us... no ones perfect, but we are strong and wise and I am sure that greater things are still to come.
We all have things inside that no one else can see.
They hold us down like anchors, they drown us out to sea.



Take each day as it comes, we have our whole lives ahead of us.

There's something in your voice, makes my heart beat fast (8)

Well I'm sat her snuggled up in bed, smelling your hoodie and I can't help but smile.

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live

where words fail, music speaks.

With the help of music, laughter and cute texts; this week has gone quite quickly. It hasn't all gone to plan and I've definitely failed my exams, but i'm not so bothered.

One week left and things are looking up, i feel inspired and fresh.

All i need is good friends and a song to sing along to <3

Keep Calm and Carry On.

I'm not annoyed, I'm just hurt. I thought you where one of my closest friends, and i trusted and confided in you..

Despite what you both think, I'm not a bitter person and I'm not going to write a huge blog of how I'm feeling and how upset I am after hearing what you really think of me. Because no matter what, I can hold my head up and be proud of who I am; I may not be perfect but who is?

I have great friends and great family, I have alot to look forward to, I've got big plans and dreams, and I'm gunna be happy because I deserve to.

We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking up at the stars...