Baby, she's a wild thing.

I just want this all to be over, being ill's getting old and schools a drag.

I can't wait to leave this all behind, go to college and grow up. I want to go on a road trip on a hot summers day with no predetermined destination, just follow the open road listening to Indie music.
I want to lay on the beach all day and take picture of the night sky.

I also want to get this taattooed on me, maybe the middle of my upper back?

tears don't mean your losing, everyone's bruising.

Well I feel I'm losing myself in this illness, as if I'm drowning and I'm so weak and powerless.

I'm trying to keep my spirits up, even though I'm scared and full of worry. Inbetween visits to the hospital I've successfully managed to watch all my favourite Disney movies and it kept my mind off everything and took me back to happier times when I was younger when all I had to worry about was what smelly gel pen I'd use to write with.

Even though I haven't really seen my friends and feel abit lonely it hasn't all been bad, my mums really spoilt and looked after me and it's been nice to just have a break from people and given me time to think about what I want and to look to the future and not dwell on the past.
So I have another appointment at my second home, the hospital, next week. YAY! I can hardly wait.